I′m moving shadows, not to hide, just to breathe slow, The lighter ones never last, I seen them bleed low, They ask why I don′t talk, why I sit cold, But you ever try explaining pain to men that never fold, They think I′m soft cause I don′t cuss when I speak, But I′ve apologized in silence, never break a priest, Stare at men I love, begging them to understand,
But their eyes were walls, thick hands, no family, I tried to build bridges, where they built fences, Told myself it′s loyalty, not trauma defenses, I ain′t ask for much, just space to exist, But they saw me still, and thought I ain′t resist, Ain′t no bruises on me, but I′m limping from within, How you tell a man he′s breaking you with his grin, These men don′t hold they hit, spit jokes and bounce, But I read between laughs, and I see that douse, I used to cry in my sleep, then turn it to smoke, Now I can′t, I can′t, I can′t, I can′t, I can′t
I sleep with my shoes on, dreams never woke, If I said sorry now, would it hit his pride, Or would it get tucked with the other lies inside, I just walk past him now, like I′m fine as hell, But we both know, I′ve been trying to unlearn this shell,
But only when a man was gone, And I ain′t mad, I′m just tired of feeling pawned, I′ve been an ear to vent, the late night escape, But when the lights come on, I′m a shadow in a space, I compliment with specifics, not for game, Because I see the way her eyes drop, when she say he ain′t look properly, We joke through the aches, pretend like it′s nothing, But she knows my voice changes when I′m frontin', Like I ain′t notice her, like I ain′t listen deep, Like I ain′t stay up to three, holding secrets she keep, That′s the bond we don′t name, the truth we protect,
But it′s etched in the silence, carved in neglect, She′ve been cooking for a man who don′t kiss her right, Meanwhile I′m right bars, just picturing the night, Ain′t no apologies that could fix the weight, Just respect and a glance will be tempted fate, I used to ghost her, then hate myself for it, Now I stay, but I ache, cause that′s what grown men forfeit, All these unsaid things float heavy in the chest, I ain′t her man, but I ain′t like the rest, We pass cards back and forth with no receipt, And every miss you lance with broken beats,
I cross shits less, trace colds, greed lower, Can′t smile as he has, we be aiming for wool, Henna, emerald for the reach, for the hole,
Why these lie to me, scoff was an eastern smoke, If he tossed every day, see he′s very next, Would′ve flashed if the can fume let, Zane expression, make it all for one,
Win with snopes, keep it rare, Sit and cash for the rack, and tell this life on a sense,
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