I’m trapped in this fucking hell for 11 damn years,
Drowning in madness, soaked in fucking tears.
Walls closing in like a fucking killer’s grip,
Can’t fucking breathe, can’t move — I’m losing my shit.
She’s chained by her fucked-up mind, locked in a cage,
Mom’s worn the fuck down, drowning in rage.
And me? I’m the goddamn storm, stuck in this grind,
Fighting a war that’s ripping apart my mind.
Tired of silence that fucking screams too loud,
Tired of being dragged the fuck down to the ground.
Can’t save what’s broken, can’t fix this past,
This poison’s so fucking deep, it’s killing me fast.
Anger’s a fire that won’t fucking let me rest,
Burning my chest, tearing apart my flesh.
I’m screaming inside but no one can hear,
Lost in this fucked-up madness, swallowed by fear.
Sick of the fights, sick of this fucking pain,
Sick of these goddamn tears like relentless rain.
Sick of the same days looping for years,
Sick of the echoes of our fucking fears.
Sick of watching her break while I stay awake,
Sick of seeing her drown in a life she can’t take.
Sick of this sickness with no fucking cure,
Sick of pretending we can endure.
Sick of the weight that eats my soul,
Sick of the lie that we’ll ever be whole.
Sick of staring at “normal” lives out there,
Sick of knowing they’ll never fucking care.
Sick of wishing for just a little bit “okay,”
But that shit won’t ever come our way.
Sick of being stuck, sick of being trapped,
Sick of knowing this hell is all we’ve ever had.
I’m breaking, I’m raw, I’m losing my way,
But still I’m fucking here — trapped day after day.
Sick of the laughter I fake to survive,
Sick of breathing while not feeling alive.
Sick of seeing the world spin fine for them,
While we’re crushed again and again and again.
Sick of the futures that all end in gray,
Sick of hope that just rots away.
Sick of this silence that’s louder than screams,
Sick of living in shattered dreams.
No chains hold me — I wear all these scars,
Living this nightmare behind invisible bars.
I’m furious, I’m broken, I’m fighting to stay,
But this hell won’t let me fucking walk away.
I need the fuck out but I’m stuck in this cage,
Raging, screaming, burning with rage.
Fuck this prison, fuck this goddamn pain,
Still here — chained up in the same fucking chain.
Fuck the ones who come looking for love,
Fuck thinking they know what I’m made of.
Fuck the idea they could “fix” what’s destroyed,
Fuck the fantasy they’re so quick to enjoy.
Fuck the dream that’s not mine anymore,
Fuck their chasing hearts while I fight a war.
Fuck healthy people and their easy lives,
Fuck their safe homes, their calm goodbyes.
Fuck that they can’t even fathom this weight,
Fuck their laughter, their peace, their fate.
Fuck having no friends — but fuck friends too,
Fuck the ones who’ve never been through what I’ve been through.
Fuck opening up when they’ll never get it,
Fuck their silence when they just won’t admit it.
Fuck the fake ones with their hollow con
