This hits even harder, peeling back the layers to reveal a deeper, slower burn that became an undeniable force. Here’s the revised song, focusing on that gradual, insidious takeover.
I Love You So Much It Hurts
(Verse 1)
Yo, lemme spit this truth, straight from the chest, no chaser
This ain't no love song, nah, it's a soul eraser.
Another fucking sunrise, same damn walls, I'm stuck, see?
Just navigating life, what the fuck's happening to me?
I didn't even recognize you, not at first, just another face
So you can't really say it's lust, no fire set ablaze.
You were just an on-site supervisor, from back in my downfall days
A hand to pull me out the gutter, through those shelter's hazy maze.
But months came by, and I finally opened up, my guard started to ease
That's when I realized, you secretly stole me inside, bit by slow piece.
(Chorus)
And yo, I love you so much it hurts, it's a bitter fucking truth
This endless, crushing love, stealing all my fucking youth.
My lungs are aching, baby, from breath I cannot take
This love, a burning fever, for goodness gracious sake.
Gigi, this silent absence, a crushing, hollow ache
My very being fractured, for your sweet love I break.
Every single moment, a relentless, burning plea
For you to just acknowledge, you mean the fucking world to me.
(Verse 2)
Tried to play it cool, dawg, tried to keep my distance, word
Sneak into the bathroom, escape this spinning, fucking absurd
World where you exist, and I'm just a fucking mess
Feel like a straight-up creep, asking what the hell's wrong, no less.
Respect you as a woman, strong and wild and free, no doubt
But this other part of me, man, it just snuffs my goddamn light out.
A parasite inside, always on my fucking mind, just you
Scared of you finding out, terrified of losing what we do.
This friendship, it's my backbone, a weight I can't even carry
To risk it for this feeling, irrational, yeah, fucking scary.
A cardinal sin, I told myself, these secrets I must fucking keep
But holding it inside, man, it runs way too fucking deep.
(Chorus)
And yo, I love you so much it hurts, it's a bitter fucking truth
This endless, crushing love, stealing all my fucking youth.
My lungs are aching, baby, from breath I cannot take
This love, a burning fever, for goodness gracious sake.
Gigi, this silent absence, a crushing, hollow ache
My very being fractured, for your sweet love I break.
Every single moment, a relentless, burning plea
For you to just acknowledge, you mean the fucking world to me.
(Bridge)
Remember the hospital? Flat out on that fucking bed
Crisis hypertension hit hard; words screaming in my head.
Screamed out for your presence; just a sign you gave a fuck for real
But the silence was deafening; a cold and cruel fucking seal.
A whole damn week gone by; no word; no single trace from you
Like my existence vanished; lost without a fucking clue.
You got your own damn life; I see it clear as day; that's the pain
And my love is doing damage; pouring like acidic rain.
'Cause I love you so much it hurts; it's a fucking curse; you see
I'd sacrifi
