Seventeen, but I’m wearing so many masks Tired of pretending that I’ve got it all packed
I’m supposed to be the one who holds it together At least that’s how I feel
But inside, I’m breaking down like stormy weather I try to stay quiet, but the noise won’t leave
I’m choking on the thoughts I can’t conceive I’m strong, but it’s not enough to make me whole
I’m lost, but I’m still trying to find my soul
I’ve got a hundred faces, but none of them fit A thousand voices, but none of them quit
I’m sorry for not being who you want to see But I’m just trying to survive what’s inside of me
Sorry I’m not the perfect son you see Jack is Sorry I’m not the man you want me to be
Sorry I’m not the hero you need tonight Sorry I’m not strong enough to make it right
But I’m still here, still breathing through The broken parts that no one knew
And I just want someone to say It’s okay Isaiah, you’re not alone today
I hold this house, but I’m falling apart I wear this weight like it’s carved in my heart
I clean up the mess, try to make things right But inside, it’s like I’m losing the fight
I’m sorry if I’m not who you think I should be But I can’t give you the version of me you people need
I’m drowning in all the things I never said Praying for the peace I’ve never found in my head
I’m breaking faster than I can explain Chasing silence just to dull the pain
That I don’t know how to explain Please help mom, dad, please
I’m sorry for the moments I disappear I’m in my head where no exists
But I’m trying to survive when no one’s here
Sorry I’m not the perfect son you see Jack is Sorry I’m not the man you want me to be
Sorry I’m not the hero you need tonight Sorry I’m not strong enough to make it right
But I’m still here, still breathing through The broken parts that no one knew
And I just want someone to say It’s okay, Isaiah, you’re not alone today
I’m not broken, just scattered inside Fighting my demons, trying to hide
I wish I could tell you what it’s like to feel The weight I carry isn’t something I can heal
I wish when I find love again It don’t not break me like all American
I will never see the son I love Even though I don’t know him
Love always makes it worse I don’t know if next time
I feel love if I will trust it But I’m learning to stand
And even when I fall so far down I’m learning it’s okay not to be at all
Wish I had it every time I go In a store, public, see other people
But baby I’ve a panic attack inside And maybe one day you’ll see me whole
Maybe one day I will see him But for now I’m just trying to save my soul
Getting ready for the move
Sorry I’m not the perfect son you see like Jack Sorry I’m not the man you want me to be
Sorry I’m not the hero you need tonight Sorry I’m not strong enough to make it right
But I’m still here, still breathing through The broken parts that no one knew
And I just want someone to say It’s okay Isaiah, you’re not alone today
So if you’re out there feeling just like me Know that it’s okay to not always be free
You’re not weak for showing the fight And it’s okay to say
I’m not alright
I’m not alright
