[Intro]\nI never got the love I knew,\nYet it found me in shades of blue.\nCan’t blame my parents, can’t blame my friends—\nThey just think I’m strong again.\n“She’s fine,” they say, “she can stand alone,”\nBut sometimes I don’t even know...\n\n[Verse 1]\nI pretend I’m tough, I play that part,\nEven when it breaks my heart.\nI'm the one who lifts the low,\nCracking jokes when I can't glow.\nAnd deep down I get so jealous\nOf the love they waste, or take for granted.\n\n[Verse 2]\nPeople came and left with ease\nTaught me love, then left me in pieces\nNo goodbye, no reason why—\nI searched for them in strangers'eyes.\nBroken hands, no sleep, no meal,\nLiving just to fake the feel.\n\n[Pre-Chorus]\nBut I saw the weight behind her smile\n—\nI know, ‘cause I’ve been her a while.\n \n[Chorus]\nI can’t do this anymore,\nLet them hate me , slam the door.\nI call though I know they won't reply,\nPush them out before they try.\nIt's how it's been these twenty years,\nTesting love through silent tears...\nCan I hold your hand tonight?\nSo I'll know when you leave, alright?\n\n[Hook]\nIf I was meant to breathe at all,\nOr if I mattered when I fall.\nI forgot the girl I used to be,\nLost her voice inside of me.\nWhat is love? I feel so dumb\nA phantom touch I'm running from,\nStill, some call to check if I’m okay\nAnd that’s enough to make me stay\n\n[Bridge]\nOldest child, forever lost.\nI screamed for love into the void\nWhile she got hers without a noise\nI envy her, but don't hate,don't know her side,\nbut still, I ache from what I hide...\n\n[Verse 3]\nA few months back, I shut down deep\nAte too much, drowned in sleep\nTears like rivers, trust betrayed,\nThe last two lights just slipped away.\nMaybe I expect too much—\nMaybe love was never meant as such...\n\n[Outro]\nThey don’t know the war inside\\nthe girl I hurt, the tears she hides. \nand I starved her heart, denied her rest \nand blamed her when she did her best. \nand I let her flinch at names she loved. \nwoke up shaking out of trust. \nm sorry I don’t know the way; \nstill searching for her every day. \nand wait for me \nand wait for me \nand wait for me.