[Verse 1]
Porch light on, the screen door's slow and creaks
My old Ford's shadow sleeps where the gravel meets the creek
Neon from the bar still paints your name on Main
I trace the tire tracks where we drove through summer rain
Tonight the radio plays our song, the melody won't lie
The jukebox keeps me company while I wonder why
I keep the porch light burning, hoping for a sign
But every mile between us is a county line
[Chorus]
I sit here alone thinking
is this the reason I stoped drinking
it used to numb the pain
and kept my tears from falling like rain
we gave our love a good shot
but in. the end we did nothing but fought
I wish we could go back to where we first began but we both know we never can
our time together has come and gone so fast now all it is something we have to leave in the past no matter how dare we tried to make it last
now as I sit here alone crying wondering what could or should of been I find myself thinking maybe I should have just go ahead and retake up drinking
[Verse 2]
Your jean jacket hangs where the hook remembers you
Coffee cup, lipstick mark — little ghosts of truth
There’s dust on the mantel, a Polaroid half-faded
The porch swing sways like the choices we left unaided
I count the small regrets like stars above that bend
Each one a kind of promise I can’t seem to mend
The county road keeps whispering, the night keeps calling names
But all that stays is silence and this slow, familiar pain
[Chorus]
I sit here alone thinking
is this the reason I stoped drinking
it used to numb the pain
and kept my tears from falling like rain
we gave our love a good shot
but in. the end we did nothing but fought
I wish we could go back to where we first began but we both know we never can
our time together has come and gone so fast now all it is something we have to leave in the past no matter how dare we tried to make it last
now as I sit here alone crying wondering what could or should of been I find myself thinking maybe I should have just go ahead and retake up drinking
[Bridge]
Maybe sober nights are honest — they cut deeper than the lie
Maybe memories are rivers that won't ever dry
I let the past roll like thunder on a far-off plain
I can’t change the weather, only learn to dance in rain
So I put the bottle down and pick the porch light up
Learn how to pour my coffee, mend the torn-out cuffs
I’ll drive these backroads slowly, learn to name my grief
Find a quiet kind of courage in the echoes and belief
[Chorus]
I sit here alone thinking
is this the reason I stoped drinking
it used to numb the pain
and kept my tears from falling like rain
we gave our love a good shot
but in. the end we did nothing but fought
I wish we could go back to where we first began but we both know we never can
our time together has come and gone so fast now all it is something we have to leave in the past no matter how dare we tried to make it last
now as I sit here alone crying wondering what could or should of been I findmy
