[Verse 1]
Porch light halo on the sagging step, night breathing low
Empty bottle in the sink where the slow regrets go
Radio hums a hymn to every mistake I made for you
Fiddle and accordion waltz through memories like dew
I learn the shape of silence in the space you used to fill
Drive these backroads softer now, the world moves on until
I find the ache that keeps me honest in the quiet of the dark
A heart that still remembers the warmth of your spark
[Pre-Chorus]
Dust on your jacket, coffee ring beside the sink
Every Sunday sermon, every promise on the brink
I trace the map of wrong turns with fingers that still shake
And pray the sober morning's mercy gives me what I take
[Chorus]
I sit here alone thinking
is this the reason I stoped drinking
it used to numb the pain
and kept my tears from falling like rain
we gave our love a good shot
but in. the end we did nothing but fought
I wish we could go back to where we first began but we both know we never can
our time together has come and gone so fast now all it is something we have to leave in the past no matter how dare we tried to make it last
now as I sit here alone crying wondering what could or should of been I find myself thinking maybe I should have just go ahead and retake up drinking
[Verse 2]
Neon from the diner paints the highway in a bruise of blue
Your laugh still rides the radio between the verses and the truth
Cactus shadows bend like memories across a Texan sky
Accordion sighs; the steel guitar answers with a cry
I count the afternoons like coins spent on a reckless plan
Sew the seams of every promise with the palm of my own hand
The moon keeps lending courage to a lonely, steady drum
Learning how to stand when everything you knew is gone
[Pre-Chorus]
I pass your favorite corner where the main street used to hold
Every small forgiveness that we never spoke, never told
The road back isn't open — it's a lesson, not a door
So I slow down in the headlights and I swallow wanting more
[Chorus]
I sit here alone thinking
is this the reason I stoped drinking
it used to numb the pain
and kept my tears from falling like rain
we gave our love a good shot
but in. the end we did nothing but fought
I wish we could go back to where we first began but we both know we never can
our time together has come and gone so fast now all it is something we have to leave in the past no matter how dare we tried to make it last
now as I sit here alone crying wondering what could or should of been I find myself thinking maybe I should have just go ahead and retake up drinking
[Bridge]
Maybe the porch light's steady glow will teach me how to wait
Maybe the dawn will find me kinder, patient with my fate
I step away from whiskey lips and every easy lie
Trade the comfort of the bottle for a clearer, truer sky
Accordion lifts, fiddle bows; a tender, stubborn grace
I learn to meet my mornings with a soft and honest face
Not every scar wants saving — some are lessons in the seam
I'll mend the map I
