[Verse 1] Woke up with that weight again, concrete sitting on my chest Tried to shake it off but it just settles in and gets comfortable, I guess Mirror shows my face but I see hers in the reflection Every feature that she gave me feels like some kind of rejection Fridge got a drawing from third grade, magnets holding on tight Me and her in crayon, back when I thought she'd stay in my life Now I'm staring at that kid who didn't know what was coming Didn't know his mama's footsteps would one day stop drumming [Pre-Chorus] This pain ain't light, it's heavy, it's lead It's every single word she never said It's the ghost of what a mother's supposed to be Haunting every part of me [Chorus] This heavy pain, it sits inside my bones Makes a house out of my body, makes itself at home This heavy pain, can't lift it off my soul It's the love I keep on giving to a heart that's full of holes Heavy pain, heavy pain Loving someone who won't love me back again Heavy pain, heavy pain Guess I'm learning how to carry what remains [Verse 2] Grocery store on Sundays, see the moms with their sons Helping pick the cereal, laughing 'bout the little things for fun I just grab whatever's close and keep my head down low 'Cause watching other people get what I need hurts more than they'll know Got her number saved in my phone under "Maybe One Day" But the texts I type at 2 AM just sit in drafts, they stay What do you even say to someone who became a stranger? "Hey, it's your son, the one you left in danger" [Pre-Chorus] This pain ain't light, it's heavy, it's stone It's growing up and doing it alone It's the question that won't let me sleep at night "Was I not worth the fight?" [Chorus] This heavy pain, it sits inside my bones Makes a house out of my body, makes itself at home This heavy pain, can't lift it off my soul It's the love I keep on giving to a heart that's full of holes Heavy pain, heavy pain Loving someone who won't love me back again Heavy pain, heavy pain Guess I'm learning how to carry what remains [Bridge] Some days I can't breathe right, like the air won't fill my lungs Like I'm drowning in the silence of a lullaby she never sung They say time heals everything but they don't know this ache They don't know what it's like to love someone who's always gonna take And never give it back, never show up, never call They don't know this heavy pain that makes me feel so small But I'm still standing, still here, still breathing through the weight Turning all this heavy pain into something great [Chorus] This heavy pain, it sits inside my bones Makes a house out of my body, makes itself at home This heavy pain, can't lift it off my soul It's the love I keep on giving to a heart that's full of holes Heavy pain, heavy pain Loving someone who won't love me back again Heavy pain, heavy pain But I'm learning how to carry what remains [Outro] Yeah, I'm learning how to carry what remains Turning heavy pain into power, into strength She left me with this weight, but I won't break I'll carry this heavy pain and still be great