Dusk finds me on the kitchen floor the TV mutes and the clock ticks slow
your coat on the chair like a shadow of a life I used to know
there's lipstick on the glass and silence on the phone
I trace the memory of your name but you're already gone
I tiptoe through echoes looking for a sign reach for something warm
but only chill meets my hand in mine I keep holding on to pieces that fray
holding breath until the light burns gold but every night you turn away
and every secret grows cold all day alone I sit and when he comes home
the lonelier I get his back to me no affection do I see not to mention
the lies I despise I love him more than anything but I don't trust him for anything
the reason my heart beats the same reason my love retreats
I paint a smile on for company practice laughter in the hall
folding napkins waiting dinner shadows dancing on the wall
you say you're tired you say it's work you say you'll change someday
but promises are paper boats and the tide just pulls them away
there's a quiet in your voice they used to say my name like prayer
now it sounds like someone else's song floats in the midnight air
I hold my breath between the lines trying not to fall apart
love's a language I still speak but distrust speaks from the heart
all day alone I sit and when he comes home the lonelier I get his back to me
no affection do I see not to mention the lies I despise
I love him more than anything but I don't trust him for anything
the reason my heart beats the same reason my love retreats
maybe I'm a lighthouse always burning through your night
maybe I'm just tired of being the only one who fights
I've been stitching up a heart that's been torn into two
learning how to hold myself when you won't follow through
there's a photograph in the drawer of two laughing in the rain
I kiss the paper and wonder if feeling's worth the pain
I'm not afraid to be alone but I'm afraid of losing me
so I listen to the truth inside and let the silence free
all day alone I sit and when he comes home the lonelier I get his back to me
no affection do I see not to mention the lies I despise
I love him more than anything but I don't trust him for anything
the reason my heart beats the same reason my love retreats
oh
I'll sing these lines until they feel like mine
all day alone learning to stand learning to breathe learning to keep time
the reason my heart beats it's also teaching me to leave
all day alone I sit and when he comes home the lonelier I get his back to me
no affection do I see not to mention the lies I despise
I love him more than anything but I don't trust him for anything
the reason my heart beats the same reason my love retreats
