[Verse 1 — Masking]
Weed smoke masking wounds, every hit just delay
Molly taught me to smile while I rotted away
LSD had me searching for God in my head
Seeing worlds, missing truth, still spiritually dead
I said “I’m not addicted, I just need me a break”
But I ran from conviction every chance I could take
Loved the float, hated ground, hated facing my past
Every high promised peace, every crash made it last
[Pre-Chorus]
I fought me every night, no devil to blame
Just a man split in two, faith calling my name
(voice close, breathy) — Lord, I'm slipping, don't let me fall
[Chorus — Hook (short, repeatable)]
God, I'm calling — break these chains
Lord, I'm on my knees — hear this shaking heart
[Verse 2 — Realization]
Smoke prayers out a cracked window, lungs full of pretend
Mary Jane in my palm, but I still couldn’t mend
Dropped colors on my tongue, chased God through a haze
Saw truth bend and ripple, still lost in the maze
Loved peace how it felt, not the work that it takes
So I rented my calm, every night at a rate
Mind floating, soul sinking, joy leased not owned
Every trip showed heaven but left me alone
[Pre-Chorus — escalate]
Mirror arguing nightly, “You good or you gone?”
I said “God got me,” but I kept holding on
Till the silence got louder than any escape
And I met Him sober, face down in the ache
[Chorus — Hook (repeat)]
God, I'm calling — break these chains
Lord, I'm on my knees — hear this shaking heart
[Bridge — Surrender (raw, unpolished outburst)]
Hear my voice, don’t pass me by — (ad-lib: Lord—)
I chose You sober, now I cry — (ad-lib swells: Father—)
Wasn’t fighting temptation, I was fighting relief
Trying to drug my emotions instead of my grief
(half-spoken, then shout) — Hear me now, don’t let me be alone
I laid down the bottle, the blunt, the pills — I picked up my cross and told You I’m home
[Chorus — Hook (emphatic, choir swell)]
God, I'm calling — break these chains
Lord, I'm on my knees — hear this shaking heart
[Tag / Anchor lines (return to testimony)]
God didn’t snatch me quick, He let me feel loss
Till I chose Him clear-headed and picked up my cross
Clear eyes trembling, still stamped in spark
Fighting relief, wrestling shadows in the dark
[Outro — Resolution]
Clear eyes trembling, still stamped in spark
God waited me out, healed my broken heart
(soft ad-libs: Lord, Lord — bring me home)
—PRODUCTION & DELIVERY NOTES—
- Vocal: close-mic, breathy on confessional lines; push to raw, almost spoken on the bridge, then open up with choir-reverb on the final choruses.
- Choir/ad-libs: reverb-drenched “Lord” and “Father” layered behind hooks for emotional lift.
- Arrangement: sparse keys and sub-bass under verses; build strings/pads into pre-chorus; choir and full band on final chorus.
- Bridge: strip back to low sub and a lone piano for 2 bars, then swell into the last chorus with ad-libs.
—ORIGINAL LYRICS (PRESERVED EXACTLY FOR REFERENCE / USER COPY)—
[Verse 1]
Weed smoke masking wounds, every hit just
