**[Intro – Spoken, gritty]**
Yeah...
You see me standin’ but don’t see the battle inside,
Every breath a war, every step on broken glass,
The pain hits deep — can’t believe this is reality.
(808s boom, hi-hats roll, snares snap sharp)
---
**[Verse 1]**
Two years grindin’, beggin’ for that funding,
Emails sent, calls made, doors keep frontin’,
Hereford was supposed to be my place,
Fresh start, new life — they twisted my space.
Packed my bags with hope so tight,
Family proud, kept me in sight,
Walked through those gates with dreams held high,
But snakes in shadows, silent and sly.
Smiles fake, knives deep in my back,
Pushed into pain, my mind cracked,
Forced into things I never chose,
Left with nothing but heartbreak.
The pain hits deep — can’t believe this is reality,
Lost in this maze, trapped in mentality.
---
**[Verse 2]**
Mental health shattered, glass smashed on floor,
College cold, slammed the door,
While the ones who hurt me wear their crown,
I’m left outside, weighed down.
I’m broken — deeper than they know,
Carrying wounds that don’t show,
Kicked out with no cause, no say,
Trapped inside this mental fray.
Why the fuck did I have to get kicked out?
What crime did I commit? What’s this about?
No mistakes, no lack of skill,
Just a soul crushed, standing still,
Hate the fake bastards, the lies they spin,
Played me hard, lost within.
Pain hits deep — can’t believe this is reality,
Trapped in darkness, lost to gravity.
---
**[Verse 3]**
I learnt how to travel, not every day,
But on my own, found my own way,
Fuck this pain — it’s raw, it’s real,
Why I’m here? I can’t even feel.
Feel like a disgrace to my own blood,
Confused, stuck deep in the mud,
Could I control it? Don’t really know,
Pain cuts deep, won’t let go.
Nicotine hits — but it don’t ease the stress,
Smoke fills lungs but can’t fix the mess,
False relief, just a shallow breath,
Doesn't touch the edge of death.
Antidepressants? Nah, they don’t fix this,
Patch a wound but can’t heal the abyss,
How you fix a soul that’s torn?
How you rise when you’re so worn?
Pain hits deep — can’t believe this is reality,
Fightin’ myself, lost in duality.
---
**[Verse 4 – Vicky Tribute]**
Vicky stood when no one would,
Saw my pain, understood,
Not sure if it was easy or hard,
But she gave me strength when I was scarred.
Only one who sent me light,
Pulled me back from endless night,
I hate how it ended, all my fault,
Left with this heavy assault.
Nobody knows what I’m goin’ through,
This ain’t a fight you just push through,
I carry blame, scars run deep,
Prayin’ one day my soul can sleep.
Pain hits deep — can’t believe this is reality,
vicky's light’s my only clarity.
---
**[Verse 5 – Apology]**
adam, sorry to those I didn’t hear,
didn't mean to bring this pain near,
neve wanted to get this deep,
lost in shadows couldn't keep.
here's an apology for the hurt i caused
forth roads i walked that paused.
nnot proud but this is my truth
broken pieces of my youth.
aa
